Panic, Panic Attacks.

Panic, Panic attack are feelings and *emotions* that can *enter* someone, often caused by something that person is (very well) aware of.

I am giving some examples most people could recognize:

*You have been warned, this is the last time* and in the middle of the *next* time, happening NOW you suddenly remember that you have been warned, it could well be that *now* it is too late for saying *sorry*, apologizing for doing it again.

Feelings of PANIC that you feel and recognize as feelings of panic is a very nasty and UNSETTLING business.
Some people panic easily resulting for instance in becoming *scatterbrained*, *where are my keys, I am going to be late, I am going to miss my plane, train*, and others deal with such STRESS in different ways, such as feeling paralized, not able to put one foot in front of the other, yawning, feeling so tired that one could fall asleep *standing up*.

AT ALL TIMES - a certain metabolic process is set into motion that needs to be stopped, or else.

Or else? Yes, it has to be stopped - and at once!!

Do not underestimate your body's reactions, and the more you know, and the more you can learn, without it being too difficult, too complicated, the better you are equipped to be of service to yourself.
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This morning such a *shot* of panic trembled briefly *in* ME !!!

Wow, I thought rather surprised, because I was *only* about to sit in front of my computer whilst listening to *the radio*. What did I *pick up*, like a bug/virus listening to some news, that basically does not affect me at all?
I could work myself into such a state, worrying, worrying and start creating and developing such panic attacks, but I would be very very stupid to do that. Worrying about what could be happening to people, because of the spiralling down economies everywhere would also not be in my own interest.
I am not a coldblooded, callous person, who does not care, I am just illustrating something, that happened to me, only about 45 minutes ago and because it is not the first time that I have had problems FEELING (unpleasant) emotions, I have become EXTRA alert.

As a *multi-dimensional sensitive (which is why this is *ailing* me), I had to become aware of this, and especially: this emotion does not *belong* to me. Either it is an emotion that one other individual has, an entire group (a collective), even a whole nation, even a globally spreading monster.

I have not met others with exactly the same *disease* (complaint) and even if I had, which many years ago I wished I had in order to share information and feel more at ease, these days I needed to find different methods to *share*.

My blog at http://www.all-about-age.blogspot.com/ is brand-new, but already this morning I was wondering what I should write about now. I had noticed already that many bloggers before me who were enthousiastic bloggers, feeding their *friends* aka Internet Marketering clients with endless streams of emails referring to their latest blog, either have moved on to other (new) facilties, or are writing a lot less.

This morning someone I greatly admire and respect also has a blog on her website, andc when I checked it: the last blog is dated 28th January, 2009. I did not check other bloggers I know, but one thing is obvious: people get BORED with their toy (the bloggers I mean).

I do not have an email list at all, although I easily could have created one, but: would I have been able to keep the email-subscribers *happy*? I fear not.
Also I do not want to pester relatives or acquaintances (I do not have *friends* these days), sending them emails with the link to MY new toy.

But *no harm done*, I am a retired from the international business & management person and I do have lots and lots of time, or rather, I am beginning to feel rather FIT, jumping out of bed with feelings of wow - I feel fine - and where is the action that I can be part of.

That action - once, for decades my regular life, at some stage began to weigh, began to be a leaden burden, terribly boring, and without any sight on changes for me for the better, for a more exciting working lifestyle, bound by the terms of references and an official Ordinance, the entire Organization had to abide by.

Anyway, the contrast of what once, before it became boring and a burden, was my daily routine could not be greater with the life I have now. My daily life and routine is either just as boring or *exciting* as the completely different existence I had prior to becoming first no longer able to work (call it a total melt-down even), then over the years, unable to return to that particular job, slowly getting nearer to the official age of retirement (in the Netherlands), and finally in May 2006, full retirement.

Someone becoming 65 receives a State-pension, and someone who becomes 65 as a worker and employee stops working for that employer on that day. This is how it is in the Netherlands, and how it had been legally set up in my time. Times are changing and how it shall be in the future for people retiring, I did not follow because I am no longer living in the Netherlands, and because I have been unable to read a Dutch newspaper regularly for years, watch Dutch television, or listen to a Dutch radio station.

With the arrival of ADSL - broadband, personal computers with better technical facilities times are changing even more, certainly for someone like me, living abroad: NOW I can actually LISTEN (as I am doing now whilst typing this) to plain ordinary Dutch radio 1,2,3,4, and so on,
L I V E. That is quite relaxing, even *soothing* by the way.

It is the first time in my entire life, during my (boring) residence here in Southern Turkey, that I am actually listening to LIVE Dutch radio, you know: what you were used to - the news, on the hour, the weather after the news, the traffic jams, and in-between whatever *they* do come up with.

Wow - it is about 3 years ago that here, where I am living, we finally were able to work with ADSL and not that many years before that: we were able to use a mobile telephone here (since 2002), and not that many years before that: running water, electricity (around 1989).

It is inconceivable, is it not - certainly for normal folks - to live like that, and quite frankly they are absolutely right. How can I have an online business, an online-shop living here, for instance with the electricity conking out regularly during the wintermonths?
That happens here with all cables *up there*, exposed to the elements.
Turkey is a very large country, very beautiful too, and it takes a lot of money (which Turkey hardly has), a lot of expertise (which Turkey hardly has, but is getting through offering better education), a lot of effort,TIME, maintenance, upkeep to improve the quality of life of the inhabitants.

As a resident of Turkey, I went through the absences, the lack of the most normal things, one either is used to (from birth), and gets used to throughout one's life. In the Netherlands, after World War II, the country needed to be built up again, everyone knows. Also *everyone* in the Netherlands knows that the country is excellently organized and governed, although the Dutch just love to complain about what it is not right in their opinion.

Here by contrast: things *leave much to be desired*, when it comes to speaking one's mind, giving an opinion, having a safe and secure life, having financial securities, and so on.

However - I am quite sure that wherever someone lives, no matter how cushioned or rough and uncertain someone's life might be:

P A N I C and PANIC ATTACKS can affect everyone!!

If the above makes sense, including my examples and illustrations - some persons do not have the compassion in themselves to know automatically that everyone can have pain, can nearly die of a broken heart (and feel for others) than I am happy.

Prior to writing this blog I checked what can be done when you have feelings of PANIC, panic attacks, I am always *a therapist*, who keeps researching ailments, diseases, so I quickly checked.

The first round resulted in: mmmm, not so much to do with the complimentary medicine advise, much more what I also read, either *new* or refreshing my own knowledge stored in my own (poor) brain.

And with that I am coming to the end of this blog. I need to stretch my legs, turn up the heater, and do a bit of thinking, and work with pen and paper.

The beauty of course of typing my words as a blog, with the aid of most likely, fantastic software that I have not yet explored to see all that I can do, the tools I mean, is: I can save, I can edit, I can delete, and with my Adobe 9Pro, I can turn what I wrote as a blog into a PDF file (some sort of dairy).

See you on my next blog - continuing all I can come up with that has to do with PANIC, and of course, by the way, indeed yes: ALL-ABOUT-AGE.

Panic. panic attacks, are very *all-about-age*, about FEAR, about AGING, about STRESS.

Now: see you next time around, bye and *blessings*

Willy A.C. Holmes-Spoelder
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Formerly owner of *SLENDERLINE NEDERLAND*, which was located until end 1992 at 213 Koninginneweg, 1075 CS Amsterdam, The Netherlands.

Slenderline Nederland specialized in health and body improvement, it had an official legal status registered with the Amsterdam Chamber of Commerce and had to be closed (only) because I, the owner met with a near fatal accident (1991) and could not continue running the business and I had no successor.